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Thursday, March 15, 2007

It feels weird now I feel much peace and calmness in me. Not good. Is it I am devoid of all these feelings le? Does it mean I am able to take criticisms more openly le? Or is it that I am just running away from the problem, and one day I will like crumble to pieces with all these? Am I indulging myself in self-delusion and trying to hide myself behind this emotionless face, the one so familiar, yet so distant?

Many questions pop up and I seriously have no replies to them. How?

What is the feeling of sadness? What is the feeling of happiness? What are feelings? Am I moving towards being non-human?

What is being sensitive? What does sensitivity means? What do I have to do? What is right? What is wrong? Why does my actions always turn out wrong? Is there such a thing as intentionalist? What is my intentions anyway? What are the consequences of what I did?

Did I not pay the price of all these?

What is happening to me?

Shattered. Maybe it's becoz a shattered person cannot experience shattering anymore. Therefore it no longer bothers as much. Maybe it's just my way of running away bahh...

Away from this reality. Hit by the other cruelty. In this humanity. The only thing left is sanity.

i was with you @ 10:16 pm


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