Saturday, December 30, 2006
2006 coming to an end maybe it's time for me to review on my yr so far...
haha ok 06 marks a v diff yr for me. firstly e jc life is totally different to wad i am used to for the past 10 yrs... and i am like exposed to a lot of things i nv thought abt in high sch esp.
ok firstly, my work is quite screwed esp for e first half of e yr... esp blks... then became better by e end of e yr... which is gd. ok seriously i tink i should cont to practise wad i did for e second half of e yr which is to focus a bit more.... on wadeva work i wanna do. interestingly sem 2 was busier than sem 1... haha.
but but 1st 3 mths esp was super duper fun. :) Really really i miss those days man.... totally no worries abt sch work haha. and pure fun. with class have fun like everyday. i totally love it :) But erm time pass fast...
then i enjoyed every moment spent wif every one of my frens. really. esp my class and my dear squad. Many thx to all. I really really like u all v v much :)
Ok i guess there's like no end to wad i did wrong this yr lorz... haix. but but i hope all i done was able to make up for it.... and all i can do i will do really. I guess yes it's something i have to learn in e hard way i guess...
Iwas wrong but i will not stay wrong for the rest of my life. I guess i have to let all these mistakes go. Only then will any pain really cease, any wounds really heal, any mistakes really correct themselves.
Still learning how to do it.
i was with you @ 9:29 pm
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
What do you do when there lacks happiness, and agony rules?
No nah not toking abt myself :P. But erm erm u see ya finding myself. Many questions is left hanging without an answer...
Firstly I think maybe happiness is something we should look into... For many people ignored the presence and importance of this very very basic brick of life. Haha yes I did too. But yes I was brought crashing down onto tis very idea of happiness, without a clue of how it can be obtained. Isn't it sad when you feel you are near to your very happiness when this is simply brought away? Erm haha. But on the other note, isn't it something to rejoice about when all sadness seem to tumble down on you but there's always like this glimmer of light shining?
Haha someone teach me what happiness is really about. Someone teach me how connection works. I hope all these are all not too distant from me. Where I am now.
When there's not much to be happy about, be that something that will make someone around you happy. oh oh haha e previous post was e 100th post :P yay.
i was with you @ 9:35 pm
Sunday, December 24, 2006
haha hey ppl. forget abt wad i wrote in e previous posts. :P ya all crap nothing else. Ya dun read too much into it. :)
Anw...
ya erm self-reflection. Erm... ok I seriously need to reflect on myself i guess. I am actually losing sight of who I am actually. And this is bad. Really bad. :( Yes maybe erm ya i did a lot of things wrong. haha. Erm yes i guess i failed to do a lot of other things as well. Equally bad. But erm ya i have to really look at myself again.
Engagement. Connection. Erm ya i heard these words too many times to ignore them. But I really really dun noe what I should do or can do. It seems like I dun noe them that well i suppose. Guess these words might have been too stranger to me to let me understand what they really mean. Maybe I might have neglected their presence and seriously forgot what all these are about. But surely I need some guidance on what this is all about. What this 2 words really meant to me and what it really meant to everybody.
Maybe I should reflect on who I seem to be in many ppl's eyes too. Maybe I just ain't deep enuf. Maybe I always build this artificial barrier between me and the others, not showing who i am i guess... Maybe I have did wrong yea? Have I blocked off people too far away from myself, who i truly am? And who am I? I seriously lost count of the number of times i lost e meaning of wad "me" meant to me... and seriously yes I need time to find myself again.
One fine day all will be fine and the sun will shine, wif a rainbow that stretch across the sky. But till then I need to look at myself once again and ask wad I am really doing.
i was with you @ 1:29 pm
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Ok everything I wrote in the previous post was when i was frustrated. Erm ok let's start anew. Let's not tok abt tis anymore. get on wif life :) I am fine really :) Jia you!
i was with you @ 9:17 pm
Every freaking thing i do is wrong. Everything and i mean EVERYTHING. Dammit. I am really very very very very very tired of this. As in really. I am telling you I am giving up. Totally. No way anything can be changed. No way anything freaking thing will work out. I shall walk away. No more.
I just want you to know yes I know I am in the wrong. I am so wrong. Yes I am. Dun deny it yes I am wrong. Ok I am very very very very very very very very very very very very very very extremely extremely extremely extremely extremely extremely sorry. Ok I won't feel good for this. I noe I won't. Take it as my punishment. Really. I am very sorry and very very ultimately sorry. Get on with your life. Dun worry. Yes. I juz hope everything is ok yet again.
And dun ask me wad happened. I dun want to think abt it now.
Ok back to life.
hmm went to see e doc for my back prob. Ok miraculous I am feeling much better :) Yay. That's like super good. I hope everything will be fine from now on. Yup and i mean EVERYTHING.
Hope you know what I mean. As in the real meaning. The only meaning.
Back away
i was with you @ 5:24 pm
Friday, December 22, 2006
Arhh.... i hate backaches.
LOL it's sorta killing me slowly... argh.. pain pain.
ok today's sec 1 registration. Went to ensure e marshal went on smoothly. Everything went fine. Hope we left a good impression on np :P
but but today morning.... dunno how i got my back sorta like sprained.... causing me to have tis strain and pain in e back. Argh it's so frustrating. Extremely painful. Had to take painkillers b4 gg sch lorz :( Haix no choice still had to go. Luckily it's a bit better now. :)
Missing everyone
When it bleeds. Where it bleeds. Why it bleeds?Healing of the pain
i was with you @ 3:02 pm
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
life's getting on again. haha. AGM today. then went bowling :) with my old squadmates :)
haha super paiseh lol my scores for bowling is like... i dunno. a bit bad :s Hope can improve more :)
yes fun fun and more fun :) Bowling's fun. :) Before that oh we had meeting like frm 9 straight till abt 2. zZz A bit long. But no choice. AGM mah... muz be long one. haha
Hope it was a good exp for e sec 2s. esp as it's their first EXCO meeting. Hope it din scare them too much :P
Yes 2007 will be extremely taxing and eventful. Hope everyone can buck up, work hard towards our goal and of coz achieve it. :) Will be a great yr then :)
Jia you!
The torch shining bright never lost my grip.
i was with you @ 10:43 pm
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Haix another busy week.
Hmm.... Had meeting on Monday. haha one of e longest in my NPCC life. 2+ to 7+. NP Room. Discussed quite a lot of stuff esp those pertaining to next year. Was rather useful. And there was pizza :) So it wasn't that bad.... but still.... it's a bit long.
Tuesday were e usual routine. NPCC Training. Yes u guessed it it's e quiz one. Fruitful I hope. :)
Wednesday was guitar. OMG e song is like getting super super complicated. E dynamics ar.... really quite a handful. Literally. And oh "tio" corrected by Mr Shi for my hand positions on e guitar. :P... Ok i'll do my best to change. Other than all these.... Guitar has been rather fun :D
Then.... while not having my routine running ard e track... i had another form of exercise which required me to walk frm the college to the high sch then to e college then to e high sch b4 gg back to college to take e bus home. :P See if u can guess wad i did :P
Today was.... their selection test. This word strikes fear in many esp wif e super super super paper. :P Hope all e efforts they put in were worth it. Then haha yes at long last i managed to successfully sneak up (i can't find a better phrase) on ry. :P And of coz our dear smallmeimei too :P but at a later time...
Then went for lunch in BTP (see if u can guess tis place). Had them do some questions on GK too :P, then we went off. Oh oh e rain ar v funny. Is extremely "section-ised"... at ard KAP it was like small drizzle. Then further down it's pouring. Then further down, cats and dogs. Then further down (which is essentially ard where i live) it's more than cats and dogs... tink become wolfs and tiger le lorz... :P but yes e rain is super heavy. Totally wet when i reach home.
ARGH I CAN'T SAY SORRY ENUF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SRY 4H 2005. ARGH sorry guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Erm oh man if there's a way to make up for it I will. Oh man i should have, would have and wanted to go for e gathering. but erm sry sry sry sry..... oh man.... damn. ARGH i shall not miss e nxt one then.
Welcome to my Holiday Week 7.
The price of admiration
i was with you @ 9:37 pm
Monday, December 11, 2006
Okok has been an eventful week i guess... :P
Ok let's start wif Friday. Went for the "All that Jazz" at NUS UCC. Was quite good. Before that went to Biopolis to find e others and went together.... ok now i noe biopolis better... really. Cuz i went one whole big round trying to find where ry was at. LOL. Went up a side road and found out should have went up e other side road which was on e other side of Biopolis. However.... when I went up e other side road and finally found where she was... I found out I could have got to the same place from the first sideroad I went.... It was like dotz..
So after the recee at Biopolis... waited for TY b4 leaving for Holland V for dinner at Subway. Was great. It was quite value for money. Esp if u were to eat like the "Today's Special".. which is like a meal... :) But but we were a bit late for e performance.... sry sera!
Everything was really very fine! It was simply great :).
After that we went off cuz it was quite late. Got on the last bus back home.
As for ytd (Sunday)....
It was YOUTH EXTRAVAGANZA 2006 by TPGRC YECs.
At Palawan in Sentosa. Was quite a great event :) There's 3 concurrent events gg on... Amazing Race, Beach Soccer Tournament and Carnival. There were like quite a lot of stalls in the carnival selling diverse things, like got sell small accessories, FOOD, and games. Yes food is very impt. lol i drank like i tink 3 to 4 cups of green tea with pearls. It's really extremely hot there and everyone is like meng buy drinks. I tink drink stall v good business.
Was in charge of Beach Sports wif JB and KX (not kaixiong). It was ok... everything's rather fine except for a small episode where a small fight broke out :S But managed to get e 2 parties away frm each other so it was fine after that. Yup nothing much actually. :)
Haha QT CC YEC won e Amazing Race :P. Yay. The team got like a lot of vouchers for Giant and Cold Storage. Bet they can like buy tons of stuff. Hey dun forget to restock e YEC room. :P
And it was really sunny ok... Totally burnt. Look like rudolf after the whole thing :P Red nose la.. haha. Skin's peeling. argh. haha
Everything went on fine... and I tink it was great experience working wif everyone :)
Yup thx lots to e committee and everyone who were there :) Great time working wif u all..
not letting it drift away.
i was with you @ 10:09 am
Friday, December 01, 2006
Oh man buz buz buz....
Argh tons of things to do!!!!!!! Erm ok i am not supposed to be whining... others have as much or even more things to do... Hope everything's ok and everything will run well :)
These few days has been... Lab, YE, NPCC, Guitar. haha. cool life.
Let us pray for e very best :P.
Everyone jia you!!!!
Slipping away...
i was with you @ 8:52 am
