Sunday, July 30, 2006
The timer has started. Countdown begins.
NDP is finally here again!!!!! OMG!!!! Yes! It is here!!! 1 week 3 days.... ohhhhhh i juz can't wait till this yr's NDP..... brings back so many fond memories.... 2 yrs and I still misses u all as much! haha...
Oh sch NDP is also here.... feel really really diff..... going to be a CI in this event, as in in charge of this event. So oh man i feel so excited... haha.... though not first time in this type of parades but these parades, every single one of them, always brings about great anxiety and anticipation.
Oh tml's e first rehearsal.... not many of these things going to occur u noe... cuz tis yr we are having only 2.... and the other's on wed... haha
Anticipation, that is what keeps me moving on waiting.
i was with you @ 10:00 pm
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
LOL..... Felt like penning this down somewhere... so here it is... my random post again....
The purest form of fondness, is none other than love itself.
Live your life to the fullest, for all you noe, everything will end soon and you might just regret it if you did not do so....
have the courage to do anything you deem fit, for you have only 1 try in life for such stuff..
Haha.... 1st one was wad i wanted to pen down... then the other popped out after i wrote the first... so might as well.... haha
Take care!
i was with you @ 9:28 pm
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Today was duty at Innova JC for e Racial Harmony Carnival.... The duty I tell you is really quite sianz.... but of course wif falcons ard.... no matter how sian it will always be fun.... in some ways....
Ok today woke up damn early like abt 5.20....then wash up, breakfast etc left home at 6 and reached woodlands at abt 6.30+.... cuz we were supposed to meet at 6.45AM! omg... so early la.... and when i thought it was early enuf.... u noe wad... when we reach innova, there are already duty personnel there... oh man.... dunno how they make it there so early one.... the nite b4 camp there... haha.... no la
ANW... went on for duty after that.... was supposed to guide e buses to park along the slip road and allow e ppl to alight.... went on quite well.... then go canteen relac one corner... haha.... frm 9 to 11 pls.... so long la.... then we played games in the meantime and i teo jack like tons of times.... thx ar.... after that same duty... until 2... wow interesting.
Oh ytd was training.... was supposed to have ndp rehearsal but apparently we changed e date.... So had normal drill training.... v tough.... 4 hours straight drills training.... LOL.... hope e cadets learn frm the sessions....
Oh ya..... hilarious la wad happened ytd.... u noe e nite b4 i put my peakcap into my bag... then e nxt day (which is ytd), when i take out.... WAH!!! (veri veri shocked expression)... u noe wad happened? ok u sure dunno. now i tell u.... u noe e peakcap there is a band in front rite.... the band overnite "grew" la.... omg... suddenly become so big la.... almost 1 inch can.... then have to rush to hq to exchange ytd b4 training.... and e auntie in e store was like so so shocked when she see it can.... then she was like even more shocked when i told here i was frm j06.... cuz it has hardly been a month frm my POC... haha (tml is 1 month aniversary, yayy!)
I juz find wad i am going thru now so so fun..... my life's becoming so so.... typical.... predictable.... Haiz.... wait... ok i dunno abt e predictable part... but it is v typical....
Anw.... on my results update.... ok i failed chem.... argh... 40% can.... my first S-paper in HC..... so so sad la.... Then bio.... D lorz... no better can..... and oh econs.... A.... not bad la....
This is so so strange can.... u noe e paper i have least confidence in and say i will fail one is actually my only "A" up till now.... then e other 2 sciences that i thought i can do well.... is my worst papers.... thx ar.... so weird rite....
Conceive something you perceive
i was with you @ 10:07 pm
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Juz another busy day..... Yet again....
Rem previous post i was like so so early in the morning post it...? U noe why? Cuz after that I went for PUBLIC SURVEYING... AGAIN! haha
this time the response is much better.... guess the location did help..... Toa Payoh Interchange.... haha....
Oh and ytd was Sat.... so see a lot of ppl carrying this tin can walking ard and asking ppl to donate... haha... of course being me I will donate..... haha... (so ego) Oh there are so many schs la..... like a small gathering or something.... some frm like schs in toa payoh..... and some frm areas totally off toa payoh.... like crescent and ny.... rise of the moonlight (was jking abt it when a grp of yellow-shirts went past....).... lol. Sry....
Ok, after I donate.... they did survey for me! Wee!!! So happy. This is wad i call a win-win situation.... LOL...
oh very funny muz tell u all.... u noe rite.... ytd surveying was wif kx.... and u noe wad? his survey forms are filled up by 96 percent girls.... and all of our age!!!! or maybe like sec sch ppl la.... OMG... so darn zai can..... he was like stopping every single girl he can set his eyes on for the survey.... LOL.... And most of the girls carrying cans he approach le.... LOL can.... it's like..... and oh he approached a table of girls in the FOODCOURT after we had our lunch.... for survey of course.... LOL la..... Sry kx... Okok.... he did that for a noble cause..... Yea.
Oh ok after that went home and slacked.... haha.... today was a bit more diff.... Went for YEC meeting.... for trhe Youth Extravaganza thing.... omg.... i am beginning to feel the weight of tis proj on me.... Let's hope everything turns out well..... ok everything WILL turn out well.....
Nxt wad did i do again...? oh collated results for survey... then slacked... AGAIN.... oh man i feel so slack.... I should buckle up a bit....
And oh should i not forget again... Happy Bday jon.... da yi shui le.... yao zhang da k? haha
What is thinkable, is attainable.
i was with you @ 10:19 pm
Saturday, July 15, 2006
one hectic (or rather hectic) week has passed again......
My life have become so so routine le..... Oh man... sch, guitar, NP, more NP, home. LOL. And I have juz found out how screwed i am in guitar.... omg... i dun even noe the score la.... didn't have the chance to practise the scores la.... darn... Got to find more time for myself le....
Wed went for NDP (sch based) briefing, tis yr's ndp will be so so diff. 2 GOH contingent. and it will be so so fun.... 2 parade markers will be 1 frm np, 1 frm nc.... LOL. P2IC frm NC, PC frm NP.... Shared responsibility.... haha. And oh did I mention we are going to have 2 civilian contingent? 1 sports, 1 non-sports. And we are supposed to train them! Oh man.... tis is worse than training sec 1 cadets.... ok I hope it will not be worse....
oh ytd have training.... man i am so disappointed la... Sec 1s.... Large intake have tis prob....they are hard to train.... The drill standard of sec 1 ar.... is really..... haiz.... More training for u guys le.... Hope they understand why we scolded them ytd.... Hope they learn their lessons. Then.... me and jon led warm-up for RT.... I rem most of the things while jon doesn't! LOL.... Tink the cadets they are rather new to what we taught them too.... But they did show enthusiasm in learning... so that's good.
Oh on my sch work..... My results are *aherm*.... And dunno wad's our teachers' prob la.... so long le still dun wanna give back our results..... Nxt week is really doom lorz.... Chem and Bio FULL PAPER coming back.... Darn.... They really noe how to make things worse.... Maths..... have been ok..... let's hope they moderate.... :P Econs essay makes me proud of it.... my first time passing it in my 2 terms of taking econs.... YAYY! But the other data-response is going to be so so screwed la... oh tis is coming back nxt week too... How thoughtful of our teachers... haha.
3 most impt thing in life.... Look, listen, feel. Look ard u, learn abt urself and ur surroundings.... Listen, listen to the voices in u and the voices ard u. Feel, feel for the people ard u.... Understand their feelings. When all these are achieved, will you then say u have really learnt much frm ur life.
i was with you @ 9:42 am
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Maybe I did think too much.
Ok I admit I wasn't in the really right state of mind when writing the previous post.... Forget all about it. Let's just leave it as that I was having really negative thoughts.... Which was scary. Been through this sometime earlier this year.... Therefore, did not want it to happen anymore.... So I decided to be happy. Which is good. At least for now.
Days gone past unnoticed.... Tired out and shagged.
Fri was NP training. They were having PIR (Sec 3). Ok let's just say the standards are even. I really think you guys can be NCOs... but being a good NCO will be a totally different business, guess training have to be done. Anw.... the squad was generally well prepared for PIR, and I am proud to see that. But attitude wise.... You guys know what I mean....
Saturday was Open House. Didn't use the U on fri so sat me and jon decided to wear it.... The cadets in charged were prepared and that was good. The open house went on quite well.... though the number of people attending is... aherm.
Me and Jon was in charge of the drill display. I took one squad. He took another. We had a mock parade in front of block B with flag-raising.... And oh... Did I mention that there were Sec sch girls there... And that jon actively engaged himself in shouting the commands... A move such as to "increase his fan base"... ahahaha... But sadly when there were such groups around... Jon was not there to command the parade... so i did.... oh so sad.... but rest assure i am not as "despo" as him.... Sry jon. ANW... both of us did well I guess and what I can confirm is both of us put in our utmost effort in it.
Played bball after that.... Got thrashed by the other team.... Cuz whenever we pass the ball to jon... it MOSTLY NEVER went in.... though he claimed he was just "warming up".... But it seems till the end of the game he is still "warming up".... with minimal scores.... And tons of potential scores but wasted ones.... Sry jon...
It was good to see that the squads have grown up a little since we left the unit.... Some of their standards are really there le... and I am glad that it's so.... But however.... it will be nice if all this skills can be shared among the squad.... so as to improve as one entity. This will be ideal...
Oh today went for PW surveying at Clementi.... OMG... Singaporeans are unbelievable.... They are either VERY approachable... or EXTREMELY UNWILLING to do a survey.... managed to only get 17 done.... oh man... to think the group's aim is 300.... But the tohers in my team did well... clinching about 30+ surveys done, cuz of external help from a kind soul... haha.... thx a lot!
Was damn shagged since last nite nv sleep for a long period due to watching of Ger vs Port match... so i am v v tired now.... Can't even go my fren's hse for the Finals due to my poor state of phyical wellness now.... Haiz.... I am so sry guys....
Dare to achieve, for if you achieve nothing, you still have your courage
i was with you @ 10:03 pm
Thursday, July 06, 2006
I am wrong. So so wrong.
Mistakes made does haunts me now. Whenever i am alone, thinking, all these come back to me yet again. How can all these go away...? How have things progressed so far to what it is now?
Life's like this. all these goes down my memory without fail. Sometimes things just do not seem what it seems. I still hold on to the glimmer of hope that tomorrow will come. That all these will come to an end. A stop. No longer a bother. But how so? Have I done wrong by waiting for this to happen....?
You think, I thought, who confirm?
Irritation leads to no more happiness than it does to its opposite. Have you ever wondered how much harm one can bring? Have you considered what happened? Haven't you seen how bad the situation would get? Haven't you thought of the idea? Why didn't you reply?
Is it wrong to assume? Don't seem to get the answer ANW... By assume I mean 2 things. Assume a role, and assume people will be fine with you assuming that role. I am so wrong.
Appeasement policies never worked out. I don't subscribe to that either. Appease only to get yourself into pieces yet again later. To piece together what is broken, will be a difficult task. Do not mean it is broken now, but still, what is this?
I am not making sense. Like I always do not. I am so so wrong.
Do I seem like someone who will put on a front? Do I look like someone who does not know my limits? Do I seem so so bad? Am I that bad? I am so so so wrong.
While tomorrow seem uncertain again, with all these stormclouds over my head, do I fret and give up? Do I submit to what I am deemed to be? Am I going to just do this, sit and wait? Do I take up a position of leadership? of course it seems that it might be possible I have over-shown what I am capable of - Crap. Don't you just feel this tinge of lameness?
普通朋友
I have warned myself before that this will come. I knew this will ultimately be the answer. But why did I follow that path again? Have I not take precautions? Have I not did all I can to prevent this? Have I not warned the others of what I foresee will come if this were to persist? Have I overlooked the fact that I am just unable to take this over and over again this year? Have I not been through this? Have I forget what it would mean if I were to let this go on? Have I not been a critic of my very own actions? Have I not think through this before? Have I not take great pain to stop myself? Have I not say "no"? Have i not been trying my very best? Have I? Have I not? Tell Me. ANSWER ME.
If all this are part of life. What is life to me? Where is hope when I needed it to shine on me?
I continue to move on because I have held on to what I believed. I do believe that one day, all these shall clear itself up, and may the golden rays of hope shine on us again.
The old philosophical question: What is happiness?
i was with you @ 5:05 pm
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
All in a day's work.
The days are getting on so so slack.... At least for the past 2 days... feel so.... slack. Didn't do much. Was like listening to music from morning to nite. Then did nothing else but play or slack lorz.... SO SO SLACK!!!! Not that it's bad..... but just it's too... slack
Anw....Bet after the blocks we deserve a good rest.... Especially when we didn't had a decent holiday since the end of last term.... haha... But like wad i said.... i spent a fruitful jun hols... so ya it doesn't matter.
Was just going to inject some randomness into my blog... here it goes....
Let your dreams be your shuttle. Let your passion be your fuel and let them bring you all the way in your journey to your goals.
Stare not at the clouds in the sky, but at the vastness of the sky. Let it be your limits. Know no boundaries and your world will change forever.
Colour your lives with passion, pride and dreams. Let them be on your palette of life. Mix them in correct proportions and see the rainbow of yourself comes to life right before your eyes.
Know your limits, not to avoid them, but to overcome them.
Have wild dreams. For all that you noe, these dreams might actually come true.
Show others not what you are made of, but what they are not made of. Allow them to improve themselves, while you challenge yourself too.
Haha... so random. Have a great day everyone...
i was with you @ 3:59 pm
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Blocks over. And I am finished too..... LOL.
Wow. First experience in a blog, oops i mean BLOCK tests..... Quite a diff one from wad we had in high sch la..... No more classrooms... Hall paper totally rocks.... Quoting frm KX, there seems to be rays of golden heavenly lights shining on us whenever we have our paper (literally, cuz the bright sunlight ALWAYS shine when we start our paper.... only that i am not affected cuz i am index 1 and sits right at the start of the row whereby i face the staircase of the stage and surrounded by walls.... LOL)
Ok, subject by subject.... First up, h1 econs.... any chance i pass tis time i will be V V GLAD can.... paper one is a total killer. Nv done anything liddat b4 la..... I was like staring at the paper and like "huh?!"
Next.... KI..... wow. Maybe i can pass..... Paper 2 tis time.... nv done anything liddat... wonder how much i will get.... "evaluate the argument in the passage (30 marks)"..... but there is no argument in the passage AT ALL.... wow. I was like crapping thru la.... if u go by reductio ad absurdem, u'll get an untrue argument and etc like wad?!..... Essay was quite easy. 9 pages (leaving lines). Hope they dun penalise on word count cuz they only wanted a 1000 to 1200 essay.... :P
then come chem and maths.... Maths i will be glad to pass on the margin if it is even possible. I find out i lost more than 20 marks even b4 i step out of the hall can.... chem was better.... but no guarantee.... basing on wad they marked me dowbn for lecture tests....
Last paper. BIO. Totally love it. Lost 8 marks once i finish e paper. Found more mistakes here and there..... Hope it will be the only decent mark i'll get for tis blocks....
In conclusion.... ALWAYS GET OVERSEAS ATTACHMENT PROGRAMME DURING BLOCK PERIODS.... though u snowball it to promos.... u wun have enough time to study for it in jun hols ANW......
Oh ytd was duty at stadium. Totally miss the stadium.... Reminds me of NDP 04.... Walked past the holding area for our contingent ytd and i was like shouting "hey isn't here the place i used to stand?" to my squadmates (Falcon) and minah was also agreeing and commenting here and there (though not as much as me... haha)... haha.... And ya saw quite a few ppl frm the contingent too... but bet they dun rem me..... Still rem when we did the hentak in the gallery wif FI jon.... we were like cheering etc... and oh the army ppl say our drills were the best!!!! yay!!! haha..... And oh the grass patch... our paddlepops!!!! And singing in the holding area.... playing lame games here and there while waiting... listening to the commands frm our parade RSM and how he always took gd care of us...How the CIs in charge of us came chatting wif us and crapping together..... Oh man oh man.... Those were the times man..... really missed them.....
And ya... finally can wear CI rank le....Felt v diff when ppl started calling like "Ei CI come here"....
Stadium going to be demolished (right?)... so many mixed feelings.... Have so many memories tied to the stadium..... Really dun like to let it go... But these memories live on even when the stadium's gone.
SYF was good. Well done ppl. Feel honoured to be able to be there to witness the last SYFOC to be held in the old stadium..... And oh the students are damn funny la... the pri sch kids are like "hello!" when they see us..... and sec sch students rite..... when they leave that time.... they went wild when jon tan said "bye" (esp e gals.... and i heard them say "tat guy so cute!") LOL.... and jon is damn happy abt tis la.... sry jon. Some were like "scream attack" us..... Saying bye in tis v high pitch voice.... lol... Some were like running up to us and looking at our nametags and saying "Bye.. eh... yi cheng"..... I was like "eh... ok.... bb". And oh one grp shouted "gd bye sir".... LOL
All in all... thx ppl for making ytd so fun and special. Thx Falcon, CIs, all who were there. Thx a lot.
i was with you @ 12:28 pm
