Thursday, February 22, 2007
I have to make sure I do not go down the path I went last year.
Sometimes I do keep wondering if I have undertaken the path that I have once went and returned from. Certain thoughts still linger around me even when it has gone and past long ago, and even if they do not bother me as much as they did, these thoughts certainly still make their presence known to me by popping out once in a while.
I keep on wondering why I seemingly travel the same route and path every now and then. Maybe the past have never really let go of me. Maybe I did not let go of what have past. But looking at things now and looking back on the past certainly brings back old emotions every now and then. Sometimes these emotions juz get too... hard to handle. So much so that I lost sight of whether I am feeling the same way I did e other time, or simply looking back at my old feelings. They are certainly different in nature I guess.
Complications come every now and then... Not that they are the least desirable but yes they do occur. But sometimes I do hope they dun occur that often. It's like every single thing I do becomes more and more complicated every now and then... Bahh... Oh well needa live wif it I think...
I find myself saying too much sorries. Does it work at all?
i was with you @ 10:17 pm
Monday, February 19, 2007
Hey hey! Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes It's e lunar new yr le.... Happy new yr everyone! Hope this year will be fillled with much mor joy and laughter. Much more smiles and all. Hope everything will be fine :) Jia you everyone!
i was with you @ 10:32 am
Friday, February 16, 2007
With a heel and a toe and a half turn around...
No not the friendship dance but the ARES DANCE! Ok we won ok.... we WON! yes we won the CNY Inter-faculty dance competition. We won ok! We won!!! yay yay yay yay yay!
Ok i shall not rub it in. But yes the other facs done well too! I think their dances were really nice too :) And and great job esp to our very own ares dance ics (Shiu Yuen and Clarice) Omg u guys rock e world la. And ur efforts paid off man! It was really really really really really impressing and great. I totally enjoyed e dance juz now. Although we could have had an encore perhaps but oh well...
Anw... well done ppl! And yes S70 (both junior and senior) thx for ur active participation in tis... Oh my i can't rem how many fac dance session in which we r like e earliest class there to start dancing la can.... we are like so super enthu can.... So nice so good :)
And oh oh e other time i forgot to write a post on tis I shall make it up now...
JTS! Oh my goodness. Thank you juniors! It was totally great. Totally. And I really really enjoyed ourselves. Though we were like sorta chased out of e RTC.... but we soon found a nice place to continue (aka Sean's place) and it was really great. I really enjoyed JTS ok.... And dun u look forward to STJ... haha. Yea I tink it will be great too! Planning on e way. Wait for more details to come!!!
Oh my I am like super high now... super happy ares won. It's like super duper worth it. As in our efforts to learn e dance... Perfect it in some sense... It's all worth it. I am so glad I am in this with all of u together. :)
And yes I am feeling ok... Like I said... though e same old things keep coming back to me and all... Since now I can more or less face it with a smile, or even juz a grin, what it serve to mean is only I know my place now. I noe where I stand and what I should be doing. I noe what i have done and what I can do. And that it is no longer as painful. No longer as heart-piercing. No longer a misery. But all have gone and smiles shall dominate once again. Though smiles are hard to come by these days. Haha. But I am good. I am fine and I will be. :)
The god of war dancing to the battle beats.
i was with you @ 8:44 pm
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Well done guitar-mates :)
Well everything went perfectly well for guitar today :) Yay so cool. E new song is zai. And the old song we played like so many times i tink i can play when i keep my eyes close. haha so it was zai too :) Yup today hanlu recorded e song and it sounded nice.... oh so zai la :)
haha and hmm...
gone le. gone like e wind it has went past me. The endless howl of tis sad song always come and go... haha. anw i am fine really :) I tink i tink too much.... and many times maybe i juz find it hard to let go of something, and let off some steam. Everything keep building up in here and poof when it all comes out.... not only does it damage myself, i have hurt many around as well...
Maybe my illness for the past week had gotten to me and thus result in me losing sight of wad hope and optimism are. Maybe I have nv been quite as near as I always thought to be. Maybe I am not the one nice guy u may find.. Maybe. Maybe. But does it matter now? Actually it does. But oh well...
When time passes by and I have to look at everything one more time and say. "I am sorry" But sorries can't heal the wound no more.
i was with you @ 1:35 pm
Thursday, February 01, 2007
these few days have been stony.... or maybe rocky too... haha... sorry to all. i tink i was kinda like "dao" and in sad mood recently... haha.... old enduring problems bugs me once in a while... Think it may be e time again where everything comes back to haunt u... and it just makes u feel.... sad. Maybe it's no longer the event that makes u feel sad le... but haha e emotions... sometimes we have to recouncile with wad we r gg thru i guess...
Speaking of old familiar pain... what if your emotions about something never changed, but u find urself in another world, with another set of conditions, problems, and the same old familiar ppl, but now leading a totally different life from what you used to think you knew. What will u do?
i dun really understand how an old familiar pain may seem so distance away.. yet feel so close to my heart, and close to wad i am feeling. Sometimes it's best not to say anything at all. Let the emotions do e talking. But what if these emotions aren't e least desirable? How can u tackle them then?
The best method's still to walk away i think. Dun u tink so?
haha stop thinking abt all of these at all and everything will seem fine le. One day.
haha and no i am fine. :)
Being left far away from u
i was with you @ 8:14 pm
