Sunday, December 24, 2006
haha hey ppl. forget abt wad i wrote in e previous posts. :P ya all crap nothing else. Ya dun read too much into it. :)
Anw...
ya erm self-reflection. Erm... ok I seriously need to reflect on myself i guess. I am actually losing sight of who I am actually. And this is bad. Really bad. :( Yes maybe erm ya i did a lot of things wrong. haha. Erm yes i guess i failed to do a lot of other things as well. Equally bad. But erm ya i have to really look at myself again.
Engagement. Connection. Erm ya i heard these words too many times to ignore them. But I really really dun noe what I should do or can do. It seems like I dun noe them that well i suppose. Guess these words might have been too stranger to me to let me understand what they really mean. Maybe I might have neglected their presence and seriously forgot what all these are about. But surely I need some guidance on what this is all about. What this 2 words really meant to me and what it really meant to everybody.
Maybe I should reflect on who I seem to be in many ppl's eyes too. Maybe I just ain't deep enuf. Maybe I always build this artificial barrier between me and the others, not showing who i am i guess... Maybe I have did wrong yea? Have I blocked off people too far away from myself, who i truly am? And who am I? I seriously lost count of the number of times i lost e meaning of wad "me" meant to me... and seriously yes I need time to find myself again.
One fine day all will be fine and the sun will shine, wif a rainbow that stretch across the sky. But till then I need to look at myself once again and ask wad I am really doing.
i was with you @ 1:29 pm
