No harm trying. Yea rite.

I noe tons of ppl will tink i am such a big fat jerk who is totally not sensitive to emotions. In fact, I guess I react too promptly to emotions. Perception I guess plays a great role too. How ppl tink abt me affects how I will treat myself. And I really really do not wish to be seen as a jerk. I am not one. NO I AM NOT. You all juz dun understand the things I did. I nv bothered asking. I nv bothered telling. I nv did anything to help myself redeem myself. I nv did anything until now. And it is ALL TOO LATE.

All I want to say is that how you saw me really saddens me. If there's totally no chance of us getting together, how you saw me as a person, as a fren, and wad I did, totally saddened me. Though I should really keep in mind what you said... I am just very disturbed by how ppl actually see me as a person. No I am not the person you might think I am. No. I am not.

Coupled with the other sad truth of life, I have nothing but a shattered universe in front of me now. Have you ever heard the sound of a broken heart and soul? Come close to me, and you will hear it loud and clear. I nv wanted anyone to feel bad. NEVER. I am not that kind of person. Since there is no point of me doing anything. I will not. I will only send my well wishes, and leave quietly.

Sadness is a very funny thing. It comes to you at times you least thought of it coming, and nv leave until that particular something is resolved/ taken over by another thing. Yes. I know all these sadness has to come to an end soon yea? I thank everyone for all e encouragements and well wishes. I will be fine. Soon. Though not too soon. But soon. It will go away.. Though it always comes back every now and then like an old friend visiting, guess there's nothing I can do about it but to give a smile and welcome it with open arms?

No I will not post any more of these sorrow I feel. I will not make others worry. No I will not. Unless absolutely necessary, no more of these will appear in my entries... Though I seriously doubt if I can really do so, but I will try my best.

Come and go. NO MORE.

i was with you @ 7:44 pm