Sadness overwhelming.

Yes I got it off my chest. I got it out. I said it out. Does it help? LOL NO!

Sometimes I just have to learn to live with sorrow... You noe this has been a very very disturbing year.. Everything went so... Not right. I totally hope to restart everything and start all over. I promise I will not go the same path. I promise I will not try so hard. I promise to change. I promise to be better.

My shattered universe now seriously needs a lot of repair. Time does not heal anything (trust me). Cuz it only makes me feel even worse when I try not think about it. I have nothing to tink abt for now... Can't you see? HAIX... nvm

The only thing I wanna say is I regret wad has happened this year. Totally. All I want to say that this time it's real. No I am not e casa u all might think I am. I am not one who would like everyone I come into contact wif. No I am not like this. This time THIS IS REAL. You never knew how long this hs lasted. I have given myself dellusions this past year, and try not to show this. But it's these dellusions that totally killed me. I hate the choice I made...

Tears will not come rolling down my cheek. I will not cry. tears have dried long before it reaches my eyes. My mind is now like going through this drought, dry and painful, unsure of the future that lies before me. No water will pass through here untouched. Tears especially. The only thing I will do is to let the depression and sadness consume me. Like the rebirth of a pheonix, I will, or rather I will try to, get back to normalcy soon.

Since you have made your choice I will not bother u abt it anymore... At least now I see a fuller picture and know better. I understand now... I need to know... So this is the end?

失意者，只能与凄凉为伍

When everything comes tumbling upon you, it's not the weight that kills, it's the effort to restore it that does.

i was with you @ 2:16 pm