Thursday, July 06, 2006
I am wrong. So so wrong.
Mistakes made does haunts me now. Whenever i am alone, thinking, all these come back to me yet again. How can all these go away...? How have things progressed so far to what it is now?
Life's like this. all these goes down my memory without fail. Sometimes things just do not seem what it seems. I still hold on to the glimmer of hope that tomorrow will come. That all these will come to an end. A stop. No longer a bother. But how so? Have I done wrong by waiting for this to happen....?
You think, I thought, who confirm?
Irritation leads to no more happiness than it does to its opposite. Have you ever wondered how much harm one can bring? Have you considered what happened? Haven't you seen how bad the situation would get? Haven't you thought of the idea? Why didn't you reply?
Is it wrong to assume? Don't seem to get the answer ANW... By assume I mean 2 things. Assume a role, and assume people will be fine with you assuming that role. I am so wrong.
Appeasement policies never worked out. I don't subscribe to that either. Appease only to get yourself into pieces yet again later. To piece together what is broken, will be a difficult task. Do not mean it is broken now, but still, what is this?
I am not making sense. Like I always do not. I am so so wrong.
Do I seem like someone who will put on a front? Do I look like someone who does not know my limits? Do I seem so so bad? Am I that bad? I am so so so wrong.
While tomorrow seem uncertain again, with all these stormclouds over my head, do I fret and give up? Do I submit to what I am deemed to be? Am I going to just do this, sit and wait? Do I take up a position of leadership? of course it seems that it might be possible I have over-shown what I am capable of - Crap. Don't you just feel this tinge of lameness?
普通朋友
I have warned myself before that this will come. I knew this will ultimately be the answer. But why did I follow that path again? Have I not take precautions? Have I not did all I can to prevent this? Have I not warned the others of what I foresee will come if this were to persist? Have I overlooked the fact that I am just unable to take this over and over again this year? Have I not been through this? Have I forget what it would mean if I were to let this go on? Have I not been a critic of my very own actions? Have I not think through this before? Have I not take great pain to stop myself? Have I not say "no"? Have i not been trying my very best? Have I? Have I not? Tell Me. ANSWER ME.
If all this are part of life. What is life to me? Where is hope when I needed it to shine on me?
I continue to move on because I have held on to what I believed. I do believe that one day, all these shall clear itself up, and may the golden rays of hope shine on us again.
The old philosophical question: What is happiness?
i was with you @ 5:05 pm
